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madame
hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Thursday, January 12, 2006 12:39 AM
sigh. darn it man. didn't do any revision nowadays. keep doing the Maths TYS, do until want to go bonkas liao. sigh. the 11th is over! not a bad day. managed to pull through though it took a very long time to dismiss the band. sigh. supposedly to be dismissed at 05.30pm. but in the end, they dragged till 06.30pm plus, which is totally like, ARGH!! not really that happy when they took so long to dismiss the band. sigh. well, i cannot do anything, but one comment is that, most of the people are tired liao, they will not really listen to what the leaders say. they hear it, but they might not be able to get it into their brain. sigh.

just started to do my Maths. wonder what time i'm going to sleep. going to watch tv at 01.00am. wahaha. all the way till 02.00am. sobs. yesterday, slept 2 hours nia. was so dead tired and i kept dozing off in class. sigh. was waiting for your message. but in the end, quite disappointed. sigh. didn't message for a day liao. happy that you made it? lol. wells, i just take it that you want to concentrate on your studies lor. i will force myself to accept how you treat me. and you treat me DAMN BAD. argh. forget it. later i kana depression, then it's all your fault liao.

alamak!! what happen to you. this few days really so gong arhs. sigh. must take care of yourself arhs. rest more okies? sick liao, must take EXTRAORDINARY care. if not, i will worried de. (: thanks for letting me shoot you til so jia lat yesterday. wahaha. i will pluck up my courage to say 'HI' to you one day de. bleahs. and do not be discouraged. can sense that you are sad and in a very low mood. i'm not mad. organise your life well and take things easily. don't give too much stress, if not, you will be the one who kana DEPRESSION. not me..IM NOT CURSING YOU. just care and worried for you nia. lols.

i need You where ever i go. do not send me to the place where Your presence will not be with me. i just felt in my heart that there's a chain controlling me right now. i do not know what it is, but i just want to break it. my deep desire is to be able to prosper and just have the freedom and life that i used to lead when i'm on fire for You. i believe that this day will come, if i am able to let go of some issues in my life. things may not come in my way. but i know that Your way is greater than mine. lead me and guide me. i will follow You no matter what happen, because the moment You held my hand, i never want to be apart from You. and that's why, i never leave You regardless of how cold i am to You.

it is easy to know and understand someone, but it is VERY DIFFICULT to accept one's weakness and strengths. true love is when you are willing to sacrifice your life, your everything, just for that person's safety. true love overcome everything.